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My life is calm and orderly. I will allow enough time for myself to do what I need and to get where I am going. Crisis is no longer a condition that I live with.

In my family of origin, crisis was common and made life confused, chaotic. Feelings of anxiety and fear were my constant companions as I grew up in my alcoholic home.

As an adult, I freely leave behind crisis and chaos and choose to be calm and orderly. I will do whatever I can to ensure my serenity and my peace of mind.

I will organize my life to run smoothly. I will eliminate clutter from my life, and I will shun discord and overcomplications. Remembering to think before I act, I will, above all, be kind to myself and ensure serenity by organizing my life and avoiding situations filled with pandemonium and turmoil.

Today I slow down and let serenity flow into my life.

Today’s Meditation from:

Daily Affirmations for Adult Children of Alcoholics by Rokelle Lerner

The biggest liar was my own addiction. — Joanie R.

We have lived with dishonesty–in others and in ourselves. Many of us had to learn to cope with the obvious lies accompanying our parents’ dysfunction or the enabling of that dysfunction. One of the ways we coped was to convince ourselves that our perceptions were false. A low self-image and our own eventual dishonesty caused us pain, and some of us found momentary relief in addictions or other compulsive behaviors.

But addictions also lie. All of them–no matter to what substance or behavior–speak to us softly and seductively: “Try me, I will take away the disappointment, the loneliness, the rejection, the pain. I will heal you.” The lie, of course, is that addictions help anything because even after a binge, the pain is there. And it is often worse.

Switching addictions is no good either. Switching to work, sex, food, money, religion is not a way out. Freedom from all addictions is found in truth. And the truth is we need to face our realities without addictions.

Today, I will examine my life for switched addictions. I will ask my Higher Power to help me stay on course.

Today’s Meditation from:

Days of Healing - Days of Joy: Daily Meditations for Adult Children by Earnie Larsen & Carol Larsen Hegarty

Today is a day to revel in my sensual being. I participate in life today, with my senses open, alert, receptive.

So often as I was growing up in my alcoholic family, I found my vision clouded, my hearing stunned, and my sense of touch numbed.

Today, I am a new person. I will take special care to open my eyes to the beauty of nature. I will notice the free-form artistry of clouds and the wizardry of trees and leaves. I see colors, shapes and shades.

I listen to sounds, to the murmur of voices, the mood of music, the rustle of fabric and the hushed flow of air. I taste flavors and I savor my food.

I touch those near to me with love and gentleness, and I am touched in return. I cherish the texture of touch, the texture of life.

Today’s Meditation from:

Daily Affirmations for Adult Children of Alcoholics by Rokelle Lerner.

I have the resources to fill my inner emptiness, to light up the darkness, to turn from disappointment and despair. No one else can do that for me. No relationship, no object, no drug can fill the void that I sometimes feel

As the child of an alcoholic, I approached adulthood feeling that “something” was missing in my life. Coming from an addicted family, I learned to look for the big “fix”– something outside myself that would take care of all pain. This belief does not work for me–particularly in intimate relationships. When I approach relationships thinking that one person will provide me with the”fix” I need to feel whole, I wind up depressed and disappointed.

I am the person in charge of bringing completeness to my life. I know how to seek advice when I need to, and I know that there are no simple “fixes” or magic solutions for complex problems.

I am freed today from yearning for someone or something to “fix” my life. I am confident in my ability to find solutions to my problems, and I have the resources to fill the emptiness in my life.

Today’s Meditation from

Daily Affirmations: For Adult Children of Alcoholics by Rokelle Lerner

from Days of Healing - Days of Joy: Daily Meditations for Adult Children by Earnie Larson & Carol Larson Hegarty

Nothing so ties us to the past as regret. Think about it. It is almost impossible to venture forth while facing backward.

Boundaries are the issue. How often we talk about boundaries. Most often these are boundaries between us and other people. Where does my responsibility end and yours start? But there are other boundaries–mental boundaries. One of them is getting lost in yesterday.

Yesterday’s fears can overrun the boundary of today like cattle through a broken fence. We can lose sight of the difference between what happened yesterday and what can happen today. We can allow yesterday’s resentments to become today’s facts or yesterday’s expectations to become today’s prophecies. Yesterday’s people may become the people we deal with today. Our fathers become our husbands or male friends. Patterns between our mothers and their family systems become the expected norm for today. It is unfair to do this to those around us now.

Today is like a bright new coin. It is potential, waiting for us to decide what we shall spend it on. We have a choice, as always: yesterday’s hurt or today’s celebration.

Today’s possibilities need not be limited by the past. I choose to be happy and healthy for this 24 hours.