Road to Trusting
I have been a member of CoDA for two years. The journey has been eventful, the road uneven, but I have not traveled alone.
I enjoyed the support, confidence, and love of my group at first, combined later with trust and guidance in a Higher Power of my choice.
I was so sick with resentment and self-pity I was slow to learn how to detach and not judge. I divorced the alcoholic in my life and found life still unmanageable. I could not divorce my children. I have learned to let them go, one at a time, and the rewards have been tremendous. As a result I experienced relationships with honesty, dignity, tolerance, and love–a first for me. CoDA gave me the tools: my meetings, the slogans, Steps, and Traditions.
The relationship I am working on today is with myself. Participation in the Program gives me confidence and courage. I am beginning to know myself and continually focus on Steps Three and Eleven. I still operate with resistance, which I find almost as tiring as resentment. I found Step Seven and it helps.
I have trust in my Higher Power and try to be tolerant toward myself, keep enthusiastic, and go slow. To get in tune with that Power I turned to nature. Once in touch with the natural rhythm and beauty of life I am able, once again, to focus on what I can do instead of what I cannot. I know there is a solution for every problem, a way through.
Today I have made progress with gentleness, courage, gratitude, hope, and forgiveness.
Today’s Meditation from:
Stepping Stones to Recovery From Codependency from Hazelden Meditations
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